The birth of Operation Sexy Bitch- the real truth.

I’ve certainly hinted to everyone as to WHY OSB came about.  I needed to get out of the party scene, start focusing on my health, and save money.  I really had zero choice in the matter though, and that’s what you haven’t heard.  This horrid economy has been terrible to all of us, I know.  My family is no different.  And just over a month ago I came home to more bad news.  Not only has my mother been laid off for two years, with no luck in finding a job, but now my father has had to take a pay cut as well, and the small amount of help I was needing to give had moved to a level I couldn’t maintain and still go out and hang with my friends.  I had to find something positive in that, because the negative crap was threatening to drag me down, wear me out, start my emotional eating, and a spiral of depression.  I’m not sure if anyone has been lucky enough to get a glimpse of the dark side before it hits you, but I was.  And I wasn’t going to choose to go there of my own free will.  I was spinning in thoughts that at 31 years old, I wasn’t ever going to be able to move out of my PARENTS house (assuming they didn’t lose it to the damn mortgage company).  I had been dating, but no one special, and was now going to have to stop doing that because I refuse to go on a date assuming someone else is paying.  It’s wonderful when they do, and I know that normally it happens, but I’m not good at dating, or used to someone paying, and so if I do something, I need to be able to pay for it.  In my head I had decided that I would be alone forever because who is ever going to want to date a thirtysomething living at home- with no chance of getting out any time soon- and who has a big wall up because I know I can’t afford to go out and live my life.  I mean, come on.  He’d have to be my Prince Charming and just a little stupid to try walking into that situation.  HA HA! 

I spent a full day living in those thoughts.  It was a shitty shitty day.  I tried to figure out where I could work a second job in my current work schedule, and nothing seemed to fit.  I was so upset and mad and frustrated, and I remembered that during a time of stress a few years back, I discovered a love of spin class as a way to wear myself out so much I couldn’t dwell or even barely think of the crap.  The bonus was the endorphins and the pride that came from working so hard.  And so Operation Sexy Bitch was born.  It didn’t have it’s cute name- that was a friend Jodie’s idea- but I knew that if I could just pull myself out of this for awhile, life could change.  Options could arise.  Mom could get a job.  I could get a raise.  You know, anything could happen.  I just needed to focus on something else for awhile and see what God had in store for me and my family.

My trip to San Diego was paid for in frequent flyer miles, and was an AMAZING way to take a vacation from my life, and take a break from OSB and just remember who I am…  Thanks San Diego people for dealing with me last weekend!  HA HA  Bloggers, you would not BELIEVE how little tolerance I had after just a month of not drinking and working out like crazy.  It was bad.  LOL  I think I’ve said goodbye to vodka because of this weekend!  HA HA HA!  Which is ok… 

I’m back now, and the situation hasn’t changed much.  I haven’t been able to get up and workout in the morning yet (old habits die hard!!), but we are only talking about 4 days here, and I’m really set on starting fresh Monday.  I took this week to really focus on what I can do to take the pressure off my family and myself and to create options for the future, and as good for me as OSB is, it’s not going to pay the bills.  A friend has been talking to me about working with Mary Kay with her, and I spent some time during OSB thinking about the opportunity (you may have seen this coming back on OSB day 3-) and this past week, I decided it was time to just try.  I had nothing to lose but time and $100.  LOL 

I’m officially part of the Mary Kay family now- Day 2!  HA HA!  I am learning the details of the products- using them only teaches you what you like- and trying to figure out the party procedures.  I’ve got a website (HOW COOL!) to let people order directly without having a party, AND you can even book a party online and get your own party PAGE on the website.  WHAT IS THAT??   I think that is TOO COOL!   Heck, you can even have an ONLINE PARTY, where you just have all your friends go to the site on a certain day, and get their colors done virtually, and whatever is bought is credited to the hostess for that day!   While this isn’t as fun to ME, because I like the idea of playing in the make up and seeing my friends, I still think it’s a cool way to do it for people who are far away and can’t host a party in person.  MAN- all I can say is Mary Kay has come a LONG WAY from the days when my mom had her pink suitcase. 

This month, if you sign up to host a party (virtual or online) and sign up for it online (and if you let me know you want to, I’ll call you and we’ll walk through it together- I need to learn too!!!) , you are registered to enter a weekly prize of $500 in Mary Kay products, and a Grand Prize of $1000 in MK products and a $5000 CHECK FOR WHATEVER YOU WANT!!  And in this economy, I’m all about that!!  Even if the party isn’t held in September, you are entered as long as you book in September!  I can ASSURE YOU that I’m getting my mom to sign up for a party this month!!  We need the 5k!!  LOL  If you are interested, the website is www.marykay.com/sommer_white

So thank you all for supporting me in this time.  You may have THOUGHT it was just a workout for me, but really, it was a lifeline.  A time in my life when I would have drowned without this, and without you guys, I may have quit altogether.  I’ll still be updating on this, and trying to balance a new career with working out, and hopefully soon, back to a social life.  I’ll take you all along with me, as long as you are interested.    And if you aren’t, I guess I won’t know since I don’t know who reads this unless you tell me!  HA HA HA

I hope you are finding some strength in my journey too.  I’d hate this to be one-sided!  We may not all know each other, and sometimes it’s hard to remember, but we are all in this together. 

Thanks again for being there….  Updates to come!
Sommersmiles